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Stop making excuses for your blocks
It isn’t easy taking big steps in life and it doesn’t really matter how old you are, either. There always seem to be perfectly logical reasons for not doing the thing, and we believe them with our entire little heart.
I’ve made excuses for a while and I’ve really never been sure why. While I can’t speak for everyone, as a 54-year-old divorced mom of 4 millennial daughters, who was married for 20 years, I can tell you the biggie for me.
Guilt.
Yep, the G-word, people.
After my divorce, I was so disappointed in myself for not succeeding in my marriage that I became stuck. I mean capital “S” Stuck. Making excuses became super easy and doing things that I was passionate about or doing things that made me happy, became nearly impossible. I was a willing excuser just because I believed that failing in a marriage meant that you could never have another ounce of joy.
I can’t blame my ex-husband for that. Not all of it at least. It was mostly me, and I know that. It didn’t help that I was Catholic and the daughter of Sicilian parents, but again, it was mostly my doing.
Guilt and shame did a real number on me, but I know that in any failed marriage, that is going to exist…
